July 25, 2011

To Be Or Not To Be

As I dig myself deeper into this art career and as I learn more about this crazy art industry, I am realizing I will need to make some very important and difficult decisions:

Dialogue or decorative?*
To sell out or to not sell out?**
Artist or illustrator?***

Fine tuning an "illustration" piece I intend to turn into prints.

While I have always dreamt of being taken seriously as a fine artist, to have my work featured in notable galleries and to eventually earn the respect of...anyone; fine art is also an extremely rough road, not always successful and not often lucrative. On the other hand, I have also dreamt of seeing my work in lights, seeing it available to people (even if they can't afford pricey originals) and making a living off what I enjoy. But, that path can also result in diluting the artwork and turning me into a sellout**.

And while I'm still weighing the pros and cons, I find the same thought popping up in my head over and over again:

Why can't I have both?
Why can't I do it all?
Why can't I have my cake and eat it too, damnit!?

So, here goes nothing...and here I go...to stuff my face.****

*Do I have a message to convey? Or is it just pretty to look at?
**Whatever that even means.
***Apparently, this can be a touchy subject in the art world. Can't we all just get along?
****Which entails: 1) Differentiating my "fine art" pieces from my "illustration" pieces 2) Updating the website 3) New business cards 4) And butt loads more

July 19, 2011

This Blog Sucks

But I'm going to do better.

I know I've been slacking on the blogging lately...ok, for the past couple of months...OK, ever since January. And I could try insulting your intelligence by giving some lame excuse about being too busy or having writer's block or that my fingers have seized up and I'm currently suffering from a bout of triggerfingeritis*. But the truth is...I just haven't felt like writing.

One of my latest. Quite a departure from some of my previous stuff.

HOWEVER, I was browsing through some of my bookmarked artist blogs and I was reminded of why I honestly like and want to continue this blog.

Cowboys and Indians anyone?

Reasons I Blog:

1. I wanna be real. I read other artists' blogs and too many of them have a schtick. They're either I'm-so-quirky-I-live-in-the-forest-and-twirl-in-happy-sunshine hippies or I'm-so-deeply-deep-and-my-life-is-full-of-suffering-depression dramakings** or something equaling eyeball roll inducing. I write to keep it real. There have been a few times I'll start writing something and I'll think to myself, "Self. You sound like a pretentious asshole." and then I have to reevaluate. I write to let you know, there are artists out there who (try to) keep it real.
2. I want to connect with you...and not in a creepy way. I want to share with you why I paint what I paint, where my focus is taking me, what I'm learning, where I'm struggling, what I'm working on and how I'm evolving. My favorite blogs connect me to the writer. And you connecting with my art is fantastic. You connecting with my art and me...well, that's just double the pleasure.
3. I want to laugh at myself. This blog is the closest thing I have to a diary. And just like diary entries, I often read back something I had posted long ago and I cringe. "Why would I write that? Wow, talk about overshare. Your mom reads this!!!" I don't take too many things seriously and that includes myself.

"Don't Underestimate the Fat Kid"

So, I'm going to try. I can't promise how often. I can't promise it'll always be good. But I have a renewed desire to try to not have a sucky blog.

And now I'm starting to ramble...which can only mean...


Lots of new stuff in the works! Stay tuned!!!***

*Not entirely untrue. I am currently nursing carpal tunnel-like symptoms in my right wrist. Ironic that I experience repetitive wrist issues as an artist but never in my years chained to a desk and keyboard. That just goes to show you how much work I really did at my former real job.
**I don't know why girls get such a bad rep. Some of the most self involved, self victimizing, emo, whine babies I have ever met have been men.
***If you want latest updates and you aren't a Facebook fan, what are you waiting for?! Seriously, I update there way more often than here.

July 11, 2011

At First Sight

...that's it. I'm a goner.
Fiona Rae. My new love.